I’ve been adding more and more to my ‘Life Playlist’ as of late, I keep finding songs. Someday I will have to post it for you all, but I need to finish what they represent.
Speaking with Gail yesterday helped me a bit with the Khala issue. Vera knows everyone’s jobs, so she has no issue taking over for a bit while we discuss Khala’s sentence. She will be extremely upset when she realizes she can’t come out after a week is up… if it takes months, it will. My husband and I talked over what he said to me, he agreed he shouldn’t of worded it the way he did, and next time he will not make the same mistake.
I had someone from my past come back recently, it was… terrifying. He was invited over by another person while I was hanging out with his 3 roommates. Merlin immediately got in between me and him before he started trying to make small talk.
He then said something that triggered me in a way I haven’t had in a very, very long time.
‘O hey do you still claim you have other parts? I mean, that was total bullshit right?’
I lunged at him, Merlin managed to bark right before I hit him. My 3 friends came to my defense, explaining he needed to leave due to his dickness. My closest friend walked out with him, and then proceeded to scream at him outside.
Telling him how dare he think I was lying, and if he still thinks that he was never a real friend to me. My friend knew long before I told him… he said it didn’t shock him when I was diagnosed with DID.
He then started to say things like what if he thought he was lying about his autism, and even before the guy could defend it, my friend said I had a real medical diagnosis of DID, just like his diagnosis of high functioning autism, and to believe otherwise is to discriminate against him, me, and everyone else who are like us.
I couldn’t really hear the rest, since Emily and I where having spats. However thankfully, Merlin was there to quell the flames of Emily. When my friend came back in, he dropped to his knees and hugged me gently, and cried with me.
Sometimes I forget there are those slivers of support around me. People who understand what I am dealing with, and even have done some research to better understand how much I go through.
I am so thankful for that.