Cracks

There are things that people say, and don’t realize the damage those words can cause. I understand everyone has problems, trust me, but using words as weapons do extremely bad damage. I was stuck in another state with a girl who did this to me daily, to the point Una forced a switch and made her sob.
She still tried, but the look Una gave her managed to keep her far from me, but instead she sent her minions to verbally attack… and it ended badly. They won’t speak to me, acknowledge my existence, and have basically shunned my husband over it. However that’s alright, they don’t try and reach out to him, so why does he have to try?

This past week, I had a similar situation, however it was with someone I loved and trusted. I can take a few things, honestly I can take quite a bit of beatings, and word stabbings now. However being told you are acting like someone who abused them mentally, verbally, and physically and also calls you lazy indirectly?
That was a weapon I didn’t even see coming, and ended up hurting me to the point I collapsed.
They don’t understand what they said to me, I told them to go and live with someone else, and they just think I am overreacting… let me explain why I think it’s the safest bet here…

They wounded me to the point deep within me, Rok’s prison cracked. Due to this, he’s slowly, trying to force his way out, causing the crack to lengthen. They have woken something that fractured my mothers knee, that did such harm to my brother, and almost broke my husbands legs….
He is dangerous, and needs to remain in that prison.
It will take time to repair the damage, the others are already trying too, but if they keep coming around, that crack will spread, then when it shatters…. god help whoever is in the house with me. Rok is pure, to the fullest extent, rage. He will rage until he physically can’t anymore… he will harm anyone or anything in his way. I don’t need him fucking up my service animal, my pets, or my husband…

The effect words can have is utterly bone chilling, most don’t even realize this when they say things. I am also guilty of this, I have said some pretty messed up things to people. However I have never once compared someone to my Father, the people who abused me in school, my Mother, or anything or the sort. I have never once called someone lazy due to there chronic illnesses and pain… or even indirectly said it to someone.
The damage that could cause is astronomical, so no one should even think of doing that to someone who also shares the same issues…. they are like the rest of the disabled community, which is why I think it felt worse then a stab wound, which I have had…

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