Let It Fall

We recently had a pretty amazing thunder storm, we stayed up from 12AM until almost 6AM just listening, and watching. It would pour, then let up, then pour some more… it was extremely tranquil.
However the aftermath of something so beautiful is the part the body begins to ache like crazy. Irritated nerve, messed up shoulder, etc…. it all deeply aches and acts up.

We had to go play family with our father today. It wasn’t as bad as we expected, we went out to lunch, public place. So we felt more comfortable then being alone with him. Emily still can’t be around when we go see father, so she hides in her room to avoid her doing something… well violent.
We recently tried joining a few support groups for DID, it’s hard to read through some of the posts and such because there systems are so dynamically different then ours, it almost feels like were the oddballs. However we have known longer about everything then most in these groups… so maybe it’s a mix of having more years to process and having a better flushed out system?
I have no clue honestly, I’m just speculating like a moron.

My service dog and I went off to a small outlet store to get new bed sheets, one of the cats decided to take commando kitty to a whole new level and ate a hole in the fitted sheet. While we were there, I noticed a lady stalking us. My dog must of known it made me uneasy, because he made sure to find a place where I couldn’t be snuck up on, and he watched the only entry way into the isle. I was looking at the bed sheets and managed to find some. She seemed to vanish, so we walked to the kitchen isle and got some cake pans (I needed real ones to try and make cheesecake). With everything, we walked up to the front. We then where ambushed by the lady…
She asked me why someone so young needed a service dog, how I didn’t look disabled, and how she called the police already, etc etc… I started to have a panic attack and my switch was so quick, the store manager told me later I dropped to the floor sobbing, saying that I would be a good girl, and not to hurt me again.
The lady was floored by this, my service dog did what he was trained to do for Rina, which is to curl around her, nudging her face to help her come to and realize the flashbacks where just flashbacks, and no one was going to hurt her.
When the police arrived they arrested the lady for interfering with a service animal, and public harassment. I guess the store wanted to press charges… Rina didn’t even understand them. I was gone for about an hour and a half, the manager was pretty good about it, she thought is was all part of my PTSD… probably better that way.

I really don’t understand… I have letters from both my psychologist, psychiatrist and scripts+letters from my Neurologist and PCP. I did Good K-9 Citizenship and Public Access testing and passed… I have the documentation for it. He has the vest, I have a MyID bracelet now with everything. I even carry a medication list and a ‘In Case Of Emergency’ paper in my wallet…. I did everything I legally am suppose to do. I have the dignosis’s… I got 4 doctor approvals for him…. and everyone just acts like every service dog is fake now…. we know why, people have began to abuse the system more and more. However assuming is what causes flares, panic attacks, switching, medical issues, etc….
Just let the dog do his damn job -_-

Anyways…

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